Over the last 60 days, I’d gotten comfortable with what I’d gained and learnt.
About what I really want, or how I’d like to live life, or simply how to keep myself happy.
It was almost normal now - environments facilitated similar emotions and experiences.
The last 2 days have been rather, differently uncomfortable.
And I realise (or want to phrase it so) that this is the universe testing my understanding of the fundamentals, while teaching them to me again.
And only if I’m sensitive to it’s lesson, I’ll come out victorious.
Today was a chaotic day for the most.
Yet it cleared up towards the end.
In short, while roaming around CP - I bought a book.
Learnt a little lesson in negotiation and truly wanting nothing.
Then I stumbled upon someone singing there outside - that was all I needed to feel amazing.
Simran called to check in - she’s a sweetheart isn’t she! This singing thing happened in front of her.
Then I accidentally stumbled upon a beautiful book store called ‘oxford book store’ with a cafe inside there. (definitely one of the most fancy and pretty ones I’ve been to)
Sat there to write this, started writing it, when I got some idea around work.
Called Rish, executed the idea, but the cafe was closing down. So I did what any sane person would.
Went to starbucks, used their wifi too, and didn’t eat anything :)
Then took a cab back 20 kms.
A day that started off as purely anxious and chaotic, came to a beautiful end.
A few learnings to go by:
- Creatives need time to do nothing, that’s when they florish. (my brain was able to think of that work idea just since I was out there and not supposed to be working)
- Hope is always a better perspective, practice staying sensitive to the world around you and it’s beauty and you’ll never ‘need’ anything more to ‘be happy’. afterall life should be an expression of your happiness, not the pursuit of it.
- You always get what you really really want. I really really want enriching experiences, and I always get them.
There was probably more realisations and things to take away from y’day, but I can’t seem to remember them today at the time of writing. I’ll make sure to document much more next time haha.