Upto last year I never thought that the good stuff I did back in school might actually come to hurt me back. But it did.
Turns out, being a school topper can also have negative consequences sometimes.
While it did give me the confidence to take on new things and to approach them with my best.
Being a school topper also never taught me how to fail, how to handle when you do, and how to get back up.
I was, and, to an extent, still am not the best at failing. Which is a critical skill in life.
Anothing thing that school toppers get is useless validation that builds up your self worth in the wrong ways, you attach yourself to your âacademic excellenceâ a lot and maybe going forward, work becomes your entire life, even when you know youâre much more of a person.
And then when work doesnât work out, your entire self worth collapses and youâre left with nothing.
Thatâs why âtopping schoolâ and getting that validation there, now, it seems like wasnât the best best.
I donât know how schools or I would solve this, but I do know now that the school system definitely failed all of us. From the backbenchers to the toppers.
Which is not the best.
So, what do we do next? Well, just like all other childhood traumas, we work on fixing this and fixing ourselves, building a larger personality to base ourselves upon, and learning how to fail and to get back up right after!
~ With Love Nmn.