Sometimes I can’t believe how someone so smart can be so dumb.
Says one of my close friends. I chuckle
Today I realised how there’s one critical flaw in all my critical thinking.
On a micro, I’m really good at work and using my mind. At least academically.
On the street, frankly my mind turns off a little, which isn’t the best when we thinking about survival in the real world haha!
But that’s not the dumb thing I’m talking about.
The dumb thing is that while I can figure out systems and structures and software that might just heavily impact the content space and like do a lot of good for me and the people I love.
I still choose to not take care of myself.
I still choose to not love myself almost obsessively.
I still choose to have this “phele paisa → phir ladki → tab sab kuch set” plan for my life, broadly, that’s what I’ve been doing for some while now.
That’s so not a smart person making decisions.
I remember Ankur’s entire thing while writing this. Decisions in life should come from a point of awareness, not ignorance.
It’s hitting me in the face.
I’m aware enough to know that taking care of yourself is the biggest action you can take for both present you and future you. That loving yourself obsessively is the only option.
That life cannot be looked at from the point of view of ‘when I have this, I’ll be happy’. And it’s never gonna be just first money → partnership → all things smooth.
Life is unpredictable, impractical, almost magical if you can take your head out of your own ass and actually see it. It’s not gonna go linearly for sure!
While I’ll not go on writing of all the changes I wanna make and what not. I do recognize that changes are due.
I know I’ve set myself up well in the macro for everything to work out.
But now it’s about compounding well in the micro, that’s what will enable the macro.
Naman - remember to live life differently now onwards, from a point of awareness, not ignorance.
love ya!