I wanna spend my life with you. but that doesn’t mean that i wanna marry you.
you see, I recently realized that the nomenclature of relationships and intentions is not standardised at all.
what love means to one, can mean something totally different to another. what being together means, can always have different, unique and beautiful definitions.
one of the most intricately beautiful thing about relationships of any kind is this little utopia two people create together, that little world that’s just theirs.
the essence of a relationship comes from the unique definition every set of two people put in there while making their utopia.
which means there is nothing like ‘marriage’ or ‘boyfriend-girlfriend’ or ‘situationship’ or anything else.
these words mean nothing unless we define them for ourselves.
one must not assume the definition of these words from the society or dictionary, since they’re a lossy over generalization, and representation of a concept that frankly, isn’t even one that can be captured in words.
so I don’t wanna marry you. because I don’t really know what that means or is supposed to mean.
I don’t care either.
what I care about is this.
I admire the person you are, it is enriching experience for me to see you flourish. To create that utopia with you, in our own wonderful way, and experience its ebbs and flows.
and I strongly believe that just because the world hasn’t yet come up with a definition or word for what we share, should we force ourselves to conform to a lossy ‘assumed’ definition anyways.
It’s almost dumb to live life growing apart from people you cherish, just because of this. I do not subscribe to that kind of life. (mah life, mah rules, come on!)
I wanna spend my life with you. I wanna spend a ton of quality time experiencing our utopia.
Anytime that I’m around, I’ll try to come see you. Times that I’m not, know that I’ll be rooting for you, always.
On my deaDbed, I’m manifesting a flashback full of beautiful experiences shared with you, not bound by a tag or dumb societal definition.
Just beautiful experiences, ones that we can die in peace with, that’s all. That’s what I want to have together with you, nothing more, nothing less.
you’re my person now, and i have a way with the universe, so pack your bags and fasten your seatbelts
coz we’re gonna have an amazing life, I couldn’t be more sure of it.